went to the beach yesterday with maz, ade and richang to cycle. we debated for a very long time, before making a final decision, and, let's just say we didn't have much cycle-time. haha. but, i had a great time none the less, and it was hilarious the way they came up with such brilliant plans. HAHA. ((:

melvin saw me. i have no idea if that is a good thing or not, so yeah. tho, it's leaning kinda on the negative.

then, after that, freda called, and we had a long, long chat. i know that i'm this super crazed person, cause i think of so many things at a time, it's like my mind is in many, many dimensions, and i know i have to chill sometimes, but, i just can't help it sometimes ya know. i kinda know it too, cause, i've been sufferin from some sort of insomia, it's like i toss and turn in bed, like for probably 2 hours, trying to find a comfy and decent position to sleep in, which i rarely do, or i will collapse due to exhaustion from all that useless tossing and turning. and, i sleep very lightly, and will wake up in the middle of the night, and find trouble falling back to sleep. not only that, but i dream extremely easy, so how am i supposed to have a good nights' rest? and, what's more is that, i can sleep for 12 hours, and still wake up feeling lathargic and dead beat. and, all of this due to my overworked brain, who ain't wanna stop working. and, i'm so hyped up and can't slow down that i can't even sit down to study. which can pose as a huge problem, but, i will sort this out.

and, ya know what freda, i really want to, and i know you know how sg's school life is like, but, somehow, even if it's somewhat similar, it's different at the same time too. if that makes any sense at all. and, it's like, there are also bitches. but, i can't see why, and, i'm at the edge. i don't know how much more of this kinda shit. but, i seriously don't like these stuff, and this kinda feelings.

what's up with me and me getting used and thrown away. it seriously does not make any sense at all. cause i'm super duper nice. not to blow my own horn or anything. and i know i can be a major bitch at times, but it ain't always, so what's their deal anyways. i wish for it to all stop, but, ya know what, in this world, there is no such thing.

manda.